I was losing me because i loved you.
They said you loved quiet girls, so I learned to hold my words. Speak only when spoken to. Ask questions only when absolutely necessary. All i really wanted to do was talk your ears off and tell you how crazy my day was and gossip about everybody in the office. I wanted to talk so much that i’d get tired of even my own voice but you wouldn’t and you’d just listen and never stop. But you loved quiet girls.
They said you loved classy girls so i learned to drink tea from a tea cup placed on a saucer and i took just a few bites of my food whenever we went out and learned to go hungry. All i really wanted to do was eat to my fill and maybe even take a bit from your own food. I wanted to fight with you when you tried to sneak your hands into my own plate and take a bit of mine. But you loved classy girls.
They said you loved sophisticated girls, so i learned to wear heels and long dinner gowns whenever we went out. I learned to pack my hair in a neat bun or wore a brazillian wig whenever we had to leave the house even for ten minutes. All i really wanted to do was wear my sneakers or even flipflops and just take a midnight stroll wearing my minnie mouse bottoms, my pink big t-shirt that had JUST A GOOFY GIRL written on it boldly and comb my hair out and let the world see what an actual AFRO looks like. But you like sophisticated girls.
Now, i don’t even remember what i used to be before you. I don’t remember how bright and genuine my smile used to be before you came around and told me that the world doesn’t take people who constantly smile serious. I don’t remember what it felt like to just let go and have fun and let loose completely. I’ve forgotten what it felt like to truly live and love because all i wanted was for you to love me.
I became a version of myself that wasn’t real and true. I lost myself just to be loved by you and then you go ahead to love another. Fuck you!
Selena Gomez – Lose You To Love Me (Official Music Video)
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